Beating Mr Grumble...

These past few days have been extremely hard for me because
I am having down time. Down time is when Mr Grumble is starting to cause issues.
I struggle badly with wanting to hibernate or just work through its hard felt grip. I was invited to
meet up with a few BC friends, but I could not face being around people. My
sullen attitude would not help these ladies on their personal journeys some
more serious than mine.

All I want to do is just curl up in silence and do nothing. Yet
has a mother of a six year old child it just is not possible. Why should my
daughter suffer for my down time?

Depression is a peculiar illness to suffer from because each
person is unique in how they deal with its effects. I have always suffered from
mild depression as far as I can remember. Its bouts can be really debilitating,
but I like to resolve its unwelcomed visits my way because I am stubborn. I
know what has started the spiral and look for ways to regain the balance.

I have had really bad moments even when I was young so bad
that on a couple occasions I took over doses, but I quickly realised looking for a quick exit was
not the solution. If I was to find a moment of peace from Mr Grumble I had to
except and understand how he was created in the first place.

Someone once said if you spend your life pleasing others
without understanding why? You will forever keep bumping into Mr Grumble. This is very true because we tend to neglect how much the pleasing process impacts on our personal wellbeing.

The shadows Mr Grumble casts on some one’s life are so intense it
can leave you weak, helpless and at its mercy if not managed correctly. So I
sit back and say right it is down time which means me time. I find a quiet
space organise my thoughts and look at how I can calm Mr Grumble.  

I have known for sometime that certain foods Mr Grumble thrives
on due to me being a type 2 diabetic. So if I feel his presence getting close I
will change my routine. Or even switch off to certain things that I know will
enhance its prolonged stay. There is no cure for Mr Grumble only good
management so I have been told.

If I can give any advice for someone who has Mr Grumble intruding on their lives it would be the one bit of advice I recieved from a shrink. Don't shut down find a friend or someone impartial to talk too. Silence is Mr Grumble's weapon and being pro active by clearing the cobwebs can help.