The last four days have been an emotional roller coaster for me. The side effects from the chemotherapy have left me rather drained, but the outburst of comments from doing the video have kept me smiling. I have always stood by the fact music can lead to people looking at their personal issues with a new found prospective. The shadow that clouded their every move can receive a sharp boot with a defiant smile as its replacement.
‘Our interpretation within its lyrics as helped people view the song from a different angle. Before the video had been done the song was like any other song easily forgotten.’
That was the words from a complete stranger who had said they thought ‘Try’ from P!nks new album had more of a link to the journey they was on until now. Apparently from now on when hearing that song it will be heard in a whole new light. Well to me if it raises awareness to the internal struggle that breast cancer or any seriously ill parent faces when facing their child’s questions then Hooorahhhh!
My reasoning for doing this video is easily explained. I wanted to highlight the day in day out torment parents are facing with breast cancer. While it is seen as my young daughter waving that pink ribbon high with a smile. That is what you want to see, what society wants a cancer family to look like. Please everyone note that I am in a flimsy white gown with zero protection from the cold. That coldness and isolation is something never expressed on a viral cancer video. Lukas had gone in hunt of a location away from people so it would show the isolation. Cancer patients and their family/friends are supposed to be full of smiles and fists in the air, but that is not the reality I walk. Our children, family and friends know the truth. They hear us crying at night, they experience the anger and frustration; they go to their beds with the same isolation of the unknown. And it is they that face the aftermath of our journey.
To me the system that should be supporting us is sadly failing on more than one level. Personally I have not even received a phone call to ask how my treatment is going from my breast cancer team. The only contact I now have is with the Chemotherapy unit.
I have given up seeing anyone from the big E hospital because as long as they have my bloods what is the point.
My young daughter is receiving support from her school, but I had to chase that support just in case issues came about. The words of reassurance given at the beginning by my team never came into play. I am just another number that sadly could fade away if I was silenced. Enhance our involvement in this video....
See, here's the bloody, bloody truth
You will hurt and you will lose
I've got scars you won't believe
Wear them proudly on my sleeve
I hope you'll have the sense to know
That sadness comes and sadness goes
Love so hard and play life loud
It's the only thing to give a damn about
You will hurt and you will lose
I've got scars you won't believe
Wear them proudly on my sleeve
I hope you'll have the sense to know
That sadness comes and sadness goes
Love so hard and play life loud
It's the only thing to give a damn about
Personally I hope P!nk can back what we have done because Sophia is a fan of her music…. And these words are motivation to keep looking ahead..